Hamster-wheeling and Enlightenment.

My post last night was a little too dramatic for my taste. See, I'm on a hamster-wheel about my finances and it's taking quite a bit to step off. After writing that post, I texted my best friend about 20 times (Carly is a saint, ya'll) and she coaxed me down. She's quite good at …

Here’s to taking a deep breath and jumping off the cliff…

I was talking to a friend the other day and describing some of my childhood, and I realized that I haven’t written much about it here. I’ve written about it in vague, hidden descriptions only. Like a warning sign over my heart. Maybe because that part of my life feels like a minefield. I’ve dealt …

Internalizing

Inside my body lives a giant house. It's got nooks and crannies, and even a secret hiding place. I don't have a basement with demons in it, but I've got a secret passageway in the basement which leads to the attic, where all my demons nest in the rafters. I've seen this place in my …

Heart-Silence

I am coming to appreciate the value of silence. I don’t mean just silence in the sense that there are no words. I mean heart-silence.Some people, when you tell them your emotional state, what you’re experiencing, respond with advice or suggestions. I’ve noticed this for awhile, and it comes in several forms. When I was …

the incongruity of being pulled in 2 different directions.

antinomy:leaden angelssinging violent praise.