The Sad Ugly “Truth”

I don't know how long I've believed it. As I sit here in my tiny little dorm room with colorful art fresh up on the walls, I don't even really understand it. When did the lie sneak into my life, little by little? When did it gnash its teeth, grab my heart between them, and …

Traveling

Often, when I travel, I find that I am not only on a physical journey, but a spiritual journey as well. This year, I'd call this one "Transformation." I am out of place among people this year and it's forcing me to be myself - fully myself - in the face of no one else's …

Saying no.

I've said yes to you for too long.Yes to victimization. Yes to abuse. Yes to doing things that I don't want to do. Yes to your body. Yes to your wishes forced on mine.I've said yes to you for all my life.When I was young I really had no choice. I had no way to …

december stories part 1

Things I remember from the week after my sisters died: Posting lyrics from "Everlasting God" on my Facebook status. " Getting a huge peace lily from the Farringtons in Azerbaijan. Staying up til 4:30am on December 9th so I didn't have nightmares. My boyfriend getting upset at the hospital because he didn't feel like my …