It's been awhile since I wrote. Some of this is due to the places my mind has wandered lately, down dark and lonely roads. But some of this is also due to being out of practice. My honesty has felt terrifying even to me, so I stopped practicing writing it out publicly and went underground. …
Legacy
We're not up for that. The countless times I heard that phrase as a child. It started with disinterest. It became a lack of time. It became a lack of motivation. It became a lack of energy. It was too hard to interact with the world, to interact with life, to interact with others. So …
Constellations
“It seems we struggle for a lifetime to become whole. Few of us ever do ... Most of us end up going out the same way we came in -- kicking and screaming. Most of us don't have the strength -- or the conviction. Most of us don't want to face our fears.” ― Darren Aronofsky; …
Love Without Fear
This post has been inspired by a month or more of thought and reading. It was then that I read a little book that changed my entire view of love. To me, love has always been marked by strict walls. This belongs, this doesn't. Love is a game and it has very specific rules, and …
I… am a Sisterwife
You might have heard rumblings around the blog world of this whole "Sisterwives" thing. "Who are the Sisterwives? Is this some joke?" you might ask. Although we do like jokes (and that's pretty clear by the fact we call ourselves Sisterwives), we are so much more than a joke. In fact, the Sisterwives are a …
My Life is Full – Learning to Prioritize
It's been in the last couple of months I finally started getting what people with a lot of time in 12-step meant by saying, "My life got really full." Recently, my life has gotten very full. Back a couple of years ago when I started recovery, I couldn't tell you what I truly loved. I …
Quarter Life Crisis
If you are feeling trapped and dissatisfied, have recently experienced a complete change of life direction, and are in your mid to late 20's, you might be experiencing a quarter life crisis. Common side effects of quarter life crisis include: A sudden change of mind on career paths. A drastic move across the country/world. Breaking …
Alexithymia (The Day My Sisters Died – Part 2)
Trigger Warning: I know several people are reading who have also been through a similar experience to mine. In light of this, please know that some of this post may be disturbing to you. Please monitor yourself if you wish to keep reading and don't read more than will unnecessarily disturb you. I am going …
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Learning Love… Slowly.
When I was a teenager, I thought I had love all figured out. I wrote poems pretending I knew what love was. Mostly because I desperately wanted to know what love was. I wanted to gulp it down thirstily without tasting its essence. I wanted to believe that the person I was in love with …
Neruda; the flowers.
I have had a little obsession lately that has sprung up in my bones. It's really been waiting for me for years, ever since I saw the first line in a Neruda poem. I don't remember what that first line was. I do remember the feeling, though. "Oh, hello. It's so wonderful to see you again." …